I've only ever had one good relationship in my life, this man was everything to me and I ruined our relationship by pushing him away. I've lived to regret it for the two years since I broke up with him.
Shortly after I met someone else who has been a bandage for the grief I felt after losing my ex. He wasn't particularly nice to me and we never had a 'real' relationship but we were close. Spoke every day and saw each other often. I thought I'd fallen in love with him even though I knew he was wrong for me. We broke up last week and it's like all my old wounds have been opened again.
I can't stop thinking about my ex and what I've lost. The life I wanted so much and that he has with someone else now. It's been so long that I know he doesn't think of me.
Now I just feel lost and the loneliest I've ever felt in my life. I don't have many friends and I've managed to lose the one person who I could lean on, even though he wasn't good for me. It filled that void and now all I can see is emptiness.
I'm left thinking about all my mistakes, the terrible choices I've made in life and how I always end up facing them alone.
Sorry for the long post, just needed to put my feelings down in black and white. I feel like a lost cause
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I've just lost the one person who made life bearable
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PremierDin · 25/06/2017 23:35
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