Feeling not loved

[kellyjane020486]

Hello,
Me and my partner have been together for 3 years now. He's cheated on me in the last and also his exes so I knew what I was letting myself in for but thought maybe as he got older he would change as he always says he wants a grown up relationship as he's 36!! We have our arguements and there have been messages I've been sent from other girls saying they have been seeing him etc. He's works in the nightclub industry so does know and see a lot of people. I understand why he does that job because it brings in the extra money we need. I just don't like the fact girls thing it's ok to message him also and winds me up even more about that fact that he will hide things. Obviously he tells me I'm just being stupid. But it's still hard to forget. I always tell him I want him to be honest and open with me but he seems to struggle with that. He has a phone list as long as my arm of girls numbers which he just won't delete yet as far as I'm aware he doesn't speak to. Some of these girls are girls who have causes issues in the past.
Following a disagreement today he has said he doesn't want us to have a relationship buts it's just easy for him because I help to look after his children when he's at work!

I just feel like I've been completely living in a false and fake relationship which I've put my all into but I get nothing back : (

[ImperialBlether]

You will go crazy if you carry on with him.

Don't forget that those girls wouldn't have his number if he didn't give it to them.

I'd get away from him before he gives you an STI. Honestly, he's not worth bothering with.

[SoftlyCatchyMonkey1]

So he's basically using you as a live in baby sitter???
Get rid...you deserve better

[Loopytiles]

He a shithead cheater, you made a massive mistake ignoring the clear information that this was the case. LTB and raise your expectations of men!

[HildaOg]

He gives them his number and saves theirs for a reason. They message him because he responds (and probably instigates). If you're looking for a faithful someone you can trust, this man is not for you.

[Imbeingunreasonable]

Absolute dickhead! He has no respect for you OP. Ditch him and find somebody better. You don't deserve the crap he gives you

[Mustang27]

He pretty much called you his live in babysitter. Get rid Kelly unless he shoots fireworks out his arse and owns a money tree so you want for nothing there is absolutely no reason to put up with this crap. If your self esteem isn't already non existent it will definitely be on its way to that if you stay. No man is worth your self confidence, ever.