I've had therapy.
I've done the freedom programme.
I've read self help books.
I've kept diaries and notebooks to write my feelings and experiences.
I've had a few years of being single so I could concentrate on me, build up my strength and self esteem.
I've done all this and I still cannot trust men. Every man who has been in my life had abused me.
I think I have just ended what has been a very good relationship because I keep second guessing everything and spend all our time together looking for red flags. Its exhausting for me and has to be unpleasant for him. He says he understands why I do it. He doesn't want to break up. But I don't think its fair on either of us.
I feel numb. Will I ever be able to be in a relationship? I don't want to end it, but what is in my head is destroying us.
I also posted in 30 days only but not getting a response.
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How can I fix what's in my head?
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OoglyBooglyBoo · 18/06/2017 11:31
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