Everyday I wake up and I'm filled with dread. My son is 20 months old and he loves to climb, jump, screech and shout, pull everything out, bite, hit etc. I find his behaviour hard to deal with as I have never had anything like this with his sister (who's almost 7). DH works 30 hours as a chef and is a very good dad except the fact that he seems to think I sit on my arse all day. We haven't got very much money at the moment which is making me feel trapped at home. I go for walks to get some sanity as we live in a very small 2 bed flat. Due to my son's behaviour I cannot leave him unsupervised so don't get to do much housework until he's asleep or his dad can keep an eye on him.
My mother has basically came storming into my home and said it's a disgusting mess and took my DAD out for the day.
I feel so worthless and have done for a while. She's always having a go at me for something. DH says ignore her.
I know it's not forever and DS will settle down eventually. I'm working really hard to curb his behaviour but it's hard. I'm trying to keep on top of things but I'm exhausted. I don't sleep well and also have infection after infection (which is finally being investigated).
Before Xmas my son was in hospital with sepsis and pneumonia and apparently I wasn't upset enough. According to my mother I didn't grasp this situation properly. My son almost died, he needed surgery and I was by his side everyday. She never saw me and DH break down on a night time on the HDU nor did she see us sobbing in the corridor when we had to leave him in the theatre. His hospital stay is being investigated by a lead matron as he was sent home before the sepsis was discovered I'm so broken that she could think I didn't care.
I told her to stop and got accused of being argumentative when all she's doing is pointing out what needs.
I dunno how much longer I can live like this. I can't see things improving soon. I dunno how to make it better. I'm fed up of having no money and feeling trapped. Sometimes I feel like I'm being tolerated.
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PhoebeGetsIt · 19/02/2017 14:23
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