My partner has said tonight he's considering us cancelling our wedding in April and him leaving as he can't see a way forwards. He says it's not about his feelings towards me. He isn't being horrible, he just doesn't think he can do this.
We have been together five years. He moved in with me and my 12 dts two years ago and we settled into a lovely family life. He's a wonderful step-dad to them, plays games, takes them to football training, kung fu, surfing, fishing, camping etc. He's also an incredibly thoughtful and loving partner.
I have an elder son who is 20. When he was 14, against my wishes he chose to live with my mother. This was a really awful time for me, and to add insult to injury I got cervical cancer and needed a hysterectomy. When he was sixteen my mother threw him out. Although we were in a better place, I wasn't able to persuade him to move home and he went to supported accommodation. He didn't stay there long, and basically sofa surfed. After moving back in with my mother a few months ago, she threw him out again two weeks ago, and I said he could come home.
This has put an awful lot of pressure on the household, as we're now overcrowded. We live in a little three bed flat. Also my son is messy and nocturnal. He is also sometimes a bit odd in his behaviour - he paces or stands awkwardly in the room, struggles with eye contact and gets flustered easily. My son has really low self-esteem, he's chronically shy, has never had a girlfriend, (although is heartbroken over a girl who he loved from afar) has no qualifications, no job, can't seem to manage to claim any kind of benefits, and has a really knackered sleep pattern.
On the positive side, he's very funny, intelligent, kind and charming. He taught himself piano and guitar and he's really good at them.
My partner feels unable to meaningfully relationship build with my son. My son is unintentionally pissing my partner off, and my partner has so far not felt comfortable saying how he feels to my son - he's just been saying it to me. I'm 8 weeks away from finish a post grad diploma in social work and I'm on placement in a child-protection team, so I'm up against it all day at work, and then studying and essay writing at night. I'm struggling to offer emotional support to my partner.
Tonight my 20 year old put on a film called 'hot tub time machine' to watch with the 12 year olds. He thought it was suitable for them. My partner came in from work and saw it on, and said to me that it wasn't suitable, and so I said it had to go off. I knew that would be embarrassing for the 20 year old, but unavoidable. My partner then chose to bring up with the 20 year old that he has left the kitchen benches unwiped, and could he go and wipe them. My partner really blundered through this, and got his delivery pretty off. It came across quite poorly, and on top of the film being turned off, the 20 year old. I think my partner could have thought his way through this a bit more cleverly. I said nothing about my thoughts at the time, but my partner asked if I was angry, and I said no, but that I had thought he was insensitive in his telling. Basically, having quietly seethed for two weeks, he decided telling son in front of the twins in a slightly frantic, snarky way was the best thing to do...
My partner works in psychiatric rehabilitation with patients who have similar behaviours to my son, obviously on a greater scale. My partner understands how mentally fragile my son is. There's a huge backstory to my son's emotional state, which I'm happy to go into, but aware this is already a huge post. What the fuck shall I do? He wants to leave cos he thinks he's getting it all wrong, is walking on eggshells and can't sleep. He's a man who suffers at times with anxiety and is currently on a low dose of citalopram.
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help to think through this please..
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trashcanjunkie · 27/01/2017 23:00
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