On Christmas Day I found cinema tickets... looked at his phone and what a suprise, no texts at all of the only female friend -his work partner/student... she texts him all the time.
He gave me a load of bull then licked my arse for a couple of weeks. He thought I'd get over it but I didn't believe him. So spent that time digging.
When I bluffed him that I had all his old texts he was backed into a corner and had to admit that he's been having an affair for two fucking years!?!?
I told him to go and he did. He apparently fell for her because she was kind to him when he was sad, we were going thru a tough time as a family. Meanwhile at home the last two years he has been in a deep depression, panic attacs, wakes me up all the time devastated, Cries every day. Tells me he wants to die regularly.
All this he has blamed on the tough time. - his parents have both died of cancer in the last 5 years, very traumatic. Then his half sister took us on a legal battle over the will.... it has been a truly awful time and I have been mothering him and excused him from any kind of responsibility for himself due to his oscar winning performance of the broken man with mental health issues. He has never taken part in family life just Sits on his computer all the time, makes little to no effort with the kids. They haven't noticed he's been gone since Monday...
I feel like the last 10 years I have given and given and tried my best to be as supportive and loving as I could. But now I feel like he has manipulated me and can't possibly have been as ill as he's made out if he was carrying on with someone else. I would have to literally coax him out of bed and reassure him continually that our life was getting better.
So he is coming over this morning to talk... I know he's going to be saying everything he can think of to make me try again but I can't, il never trust him again. 2 years isn't a drunken mistake it's constant lies and deceiving me. So not looking forward to this morning now.
I am absolutely heart broken and in pieces ha has destroyed our family. But I can't live checking up on him and wondering if Im being bullshitted by him.
My other issue is that when we had finally got thru a year long legal battle with his psycho half sister, we finally got sorted and inherited his parents house. ( she got all the money+++)
Me and my parents spent 4 months from Xmas til April last year. Gutted the house completely, knocked walls down, new kitchen, bathroom, new electrics, new plumbing, every room totally unrecognisable.
We were here every day in the snow and ice, working our arses off. Whilst he painted about two walls begrudgingly and was incapable of doing anything else because although he was wanting the house how we wanted it and made our own, he couldn't bring himself to see it a mess.
He had us all fooled. He now says If this is the end, he will go and me and the kids stay in the house. But it's in his name and I'm not sure he's going to stay saying that once he realises there's no chance of a reconciliation.
Feel very vulnerable right now.
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