Hi, everyone
To keep a loooong story shorter, I have never had a close relationship with my mother due to childhood emotional and physical abuse and her being unsupportive/ignorant of my depression diagnosis. I moved out of home at 18. Through therapy I have accepted that I will never receive emotional support from her and we will never have that close mother-daughter bond. That's fine.
In the last 5 or so years she has seemingly realised her "mistakes" (although isn't apologetic or showing any insight in the slightest) and is almost obsessive in wanting to know exactly what I'm doing, where I'm going on holiday, can she come along etc. She's been over to mine for Christmases and short stays (I live in a very pretty part of the country). I make an effort to take her out, daytrips, dinners etc.
However, the emotional warmth just isn't there. She's a stranger to me and I can't get over it.
I recently divorced and have gone on a short holiday to clear my head and be alone with my thoughts. Prior to departure, she called every day to ask where I was going, that I was selfish for not taking her with me and that it's hard for her too.
I admit that at the moment I have made a conscious decision to look after myself and make sure I can cope with work etc, considering how easy it is for my depression to become overwhelming.
Am I being a selfish child? Do I make more effort to be with her? At the moment I can't see past the fact that she was a terrible parent and is now basically a stranger to me.
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Am I being childish?
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TheMD · 02/01/2017 17:40
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