After a stormy 37 year marriage and two grown up children I feel I have to walk away. I have always tried to understand my husband's short temper and moods but I can't find the strength anymore. He should take anti depressants but has cut them down to half the dose again which causes his moods to return but he doesn't see that. He has told me again that I cause him to be depressed and to go back to the UK and leave him in Spain at our retirement home. I usually leave him for a couple of days and approach him to hopefully talk. This pattern just drags me down having to talk him round. I totally feel worthless and find myself questioning if it is me. I don't feel happy most of the time and do walk on egg shells a lot. I feel so resentful that he never makes an effort towards any area of our marriage despite living the dream of early retirement! His dream... Not mine...But I knew I had to try it as it meant so much to him but now I feel I have nothing in my life here in Spain. I feel very lonely going into. New year on my own due to another petty argument.
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