Hi.
As the title says, I have serious issues and I need help before I make myself ill. To not drip feed I just want to say first that I do suffer badly with anxiety and I have an appointment with my gp to see if I can go back onto some tablets to try and bring it down.
I'm 28 and have one ds. I split with his dad coming up to a year ago (we were together 7 years)
Since then I have had:
1 FWB situation
One drunken kiss with a friend of a friend
One flirty texting situation with a workmate
And I went for one date with a man On xmas eve (ds was with dad will xmas day dinner time)
Anyway, just thought I'd give a back story. But yes, I have serious issues and I really need help. I'm on my phone so this may be a bit of a ramble but I'll try my best to make it all make sense.
When I like someone or someone shows an interest in me, I become a nervous wreck who is constantly, and I mean constantly, thinking about the person, checking my phone, re reading the messages they sent, sending screen shots to my other single friend (who is just like me so I think we feed each other) to get her opinion. I feel really anxious, and i start feeling sick. Waiting for them to get in touch is like my ever consuming thought.
Take the man I went on a date with. We had a brilliant time and we got on well, and have arranged to go out again tomorrow night for a few drinks. All good. However I didn't hear off him yesterday and have text him this morning and he hasn't replied. Any rational person would think as we have arranged to go out tomorrow there was nothing to speak about yesterday and this morning it is still early and some people don't have their phones welded to their hands. However I'm back to feel anxious and a bit teary.
I KNOW I sound completely irrational and crazy and I do not want to feel like this. I am never ever going to be in a happy, normal relationship if I am on the verge of tears because someone I have spent a grand total of 7 hours with has not replied to my message.
I am a professional woman with a good job, amazing son, own my own home, good friends and a solid family and yet here I am, checking my phone every few seconds. And this is what I am always like. I was like this before I met exdp and I am even worse now. I need help, serious help. I can't afford counselling but maybe some self help books? As I said, I will already be going back to the docs for help.
Has anyone got any advice? As I have said, I know I am completely irrational and it's a horrible, horrible feeling.
Thanks if you've got this far !
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HeatherMoony · 29/12/2016 10:38
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