I'm a long time reader of these threads, but this is my first post. I've picked up a lot of good advice in the past from reading other threads and I hope to have some more here...
I'm feeling so fed up and really like I can't go on anymore. My life is fine, and people have so many bigger problems. I feel guilty for feeling like this. I'm 30, single, own my own home, car, and work in a "well respected" profession. I have a few good friends and many acquaintances. I don't really feel lonely in my friendships, although I suppose as you get older, friends get fewer but the real good ones stay. I see my parents and brother once or twice a month. Sounds good on paper...
But the truth is, I hate my job. I know why this is - the company is far too big, it's impersonal and it's very corporate and my colleagues are very competitive and not very nice people. So I decided to make that change, and I had two interviews elsewhere...but I haven't heard back in 2 weeks. I assume that means I didn't get the job. This has caused me this afternoon to spiral into all sorts of horrible feelings about myself as a person and the fact that i come home to an empty house.
I feel like I've achieved everything I wanted to at this age, except for being on my own and without a family. And that was actually the thing I wanted most. I have been on dates, but my last two relationships ended because my DPs didn't want to settle down. One went traveling when we broke up and the other works in New Zealand now!! And I've become very skeptical of anyone I've met online or through friends. I just think I cant really be bothered.. i've started to wonder recently what I will do with my life, because i've really begun to believe that it will just be me, on my own, for my whole life.
I don't know where this post is going, and it probably sounds quite jumbled. I just feel like such a mess.
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othersideup · 02/11/2016 19:05
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