I don't know why but I've been thinking a lot about my parents marriage recently, and realising just how messed up it was.
They seemed to hate each other, and enjoy hating each other. They argued in front of us children quite regularly, including on occasion throwing things at each other. My mum seemed to have no respect for my dad whatsoever, and my dad just bumbled through it. I think she may have asked for a separation at some point, but for whatever reason it didn't happen.
I'm pretty certain my mum cheated on him at least once, with one of my teachers. I kind of turned a blind eye to it, but several people at my school saw them kissing at a school event. Why would a parent do that to their child somewhere like that?
My dad once announced to me that they'd split up and that it was my fault. Obviously I logically know that a child is never to blame for a relationship ending, but I cannot for the life of me think of even one tiny thing that might have caused him to say this.
They stayed together though, and my mum was very upset when he died. But it was a very strange and messed up relationship.
I've no idea why I'm thinking about this now. I'm married, and I have young children. I'd class us as happy on the whole, but we have had a few problems recently. Just silly snappy arguments more frequently than usual. It doesn't seriously worry me as we've both had a bit of a stressful time lately and we're both absolutely exhausted. It doesn't concern me - we've head the occasional ropey patch before, and I know we love each other even when we're being snappy.
But do the relationships we see growing up affect us in adulthood? In my 20s I was desperate to be in a relationship and be in love. Ended up in several pointless ones. Id say I've had two successful relationships, one of which is the one I'm in. But if the rot set in for my parents, could it for us? When did my mum stop respecting my dad? When did he give up caring? And when did they forget that they were setting a terrible example to their children? I always try to not be critical or snappy or say nasty things in front of my children, and neither of us have.
Just a musing really. Do we follow the example we're set? Could I be sleepwalking into the miserably family life they had?
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My parents had a really messed up marriage
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TheHotstepper · 18/10/2016 16:29
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