Hello, I've never done anything like this before but i don't know where else to turn :(
I Had crazy whirlwind relationship with my ex when we were 18.
he was abusive but it wasn't all bad. Still miss him massively in some ways.
We have a 14 yr old son together who he's not allowed to see because of social services etc and my son doesn't want to see him.
He won't believe it's my sons choice (thinks it's all me) and is determined to speak to him.
He's just moved with his rich pregnant fiancé to the top of my road after 8 years of us being apart but he has already broken the handle off the door to my flats and written his name on my car after getting drunk and kicking off at the pub over the road.
In a weird warped way I feel slightly comforted to think he still thinks of me but obvs I know this isn't normal or good.
They live in a beautiful home, go on multiple holidays and breaks etc, she pays for everything and is pretty.
He's an ex drug addict that's spent most of his life in prison with anger issues
I feel so jealous and rejected but I know he's no good, but my mind keeps saying maybe he's finally going to be all the things I wanted him to be.
My son is upset because he has no other siblings and has always wanted them and now his psycho dad has moved onto our doorstep and messaged him saying he's going to be a big brother which is messing with his head, he's freaked out by his dad but naturally wants to see the baby.
I'm on my own working 2 jobs never met anyone since him, so have a huge amount of mixed emotions like fear, jealousy, sadness, rejection, defeat, deisbelief..
Why would he move so close? Why would she want to move so close to us?
Does he want to antagonise me?
He did live an hour away before but said they want to live in a nice area for the baby Which just so happens to be where I walk past every day on way to work.
I almost feel like I'm grieving the end of our relationship which has knocked me and my self esteem massively, in fact I think I'm becoming slightly depressed. The thought of this being long term is too much to bare :(
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Feel like this is the final straw :(
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Jules8432 · 27/09/2016 13:22
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