Hello, i wasn't sure where to post this so I hope this is the right place.
I'm worried about a GP appt I have coming up where I will need an internal examination done by a female GP. I have some pain in my womb area and at my initial appointment she said to see the nurse for bloods and a urine sample and to book a second appt with her as she will need to do an internal examination to gain further info on what's causing my pain.
Thing is, every time I think of this appt I burst into tears because a couple of years ago I split from my ex husband as he was controlling and sexually abusive. I'm safe now and have my life sorted out but this internal examination coming up has stirred up all the memories and feelings I had and I don't think I'm going to be able to put myself in such a vulnerable position. I saw a different female GP before I split with the ex as I summoned up the courage to write a letter outlining the abuse and made a last minute appt to ask for help and showed her the letter. Unfortunately she berated me for wasting her time and said it was his issue and she sent me away feeling destroyed and isolated. So, I don't have any confidence in telling this new GP what I'm so terrified of with this examination. My usual GP who is excellent and supportive is a male and I can't possibly have him do the examination. I just don't know what to do.
I thought I was making some sort of recovery but with that aspect of his abuse I haven't recovered at all. I get triggered so easily, even my kids accidentally touching me during play, cuddles, etc in my whole lower body area triggers me still as does the thoughts of the GP using certain words instructing me during the process.
I promised my body I wouldn't dissociate from it and abandon it ever again whilst painful and degrading things happened to it but I just don't know how I'm going to get through this.
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Rumblingtummy · 17/09/2016 23:12
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