Ok so I'm new to this I had my first talking therapy session today and she suggested I tried Mums net.
Basically I just need some advice/suggestions etc.
Sorry it's so long!
I've been with my husband for almost 7 years, married for 2 years and we have two sons together.
I recently found out my husband had cheated on me in the past.. He used to be an alcoholic and take drugs on occasion. So he uses that as his excuse of course.
As far as I'm aware he does not do either of those now. But since finding out he cheated on me I feel this is the last straw.
I have struggled to forgive and get over the things he's done in the past. For 6 years I've had to put up with him being so drunk that he's pissed him self or the bed, choked on his own vomit, and accidentally overdosed and ended up in hospital.. The way he has treated me and spoke to when he's been under the influence is disgusting and even now sober he often tells me my purpose in life is to make sure his dinner is ready waiting for him when he gets home with a clean and tidy house.. And that he also thinks I should give up my own business (I own a salon) so I can spend more time with the kids. Bearing in mind I do not have child care we can't afford it so I do not work in the day.. I work evenings once he's home from work. So I'm already spending all morning and afternoons with my boys.
I've been suffering from depression and anxiety and now am loosing interest in myself, work, hobbies ..just everything really!
I am not the person I used to be any more, I feel trapped because we are married and have two children and I can not afford to support myself and kids alone. If I chose to leave my husband I would have no help from family as my dad has told me to suck it up and get on with it and will not financially help me, and my mum is a student in her own crappy relationship.
I would loose my business, my house, my life.
I don't no what to do. I just feel like running away!
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Feeling trapped I want to run away
Pinklemonade123 · 16/09/2016 00:59
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