I've lurked for a while, finally feel ready to post.
My relationship with my dad has never been good. He walked out on my mum when I was 3, saw me sporadically for a few years, which gradually became less and less. Probably a few times a year. Mum has always done everything for me and supported me. She had to go back to work full time straight away, so I was raised and supported by her and my grandparents (on mum's side). Dad hardly ever paid maintenance.
We've just never got on at all. Whenever we spent time together, it always felt forced. He has always been completely unreliable, made false promises etc, and has always relied on occasional 'grand gestures', which I imagine make him feel like he's being a 'good dad'. (E.g. going completely off the radar for almost a year, then turning up with £1000 on my 18th birthday).
Shortly after my 18th, he emigrated. Since then I have seen him twice (I'm now 25). Once was when I visited the country he now lives in for a holiday, the other was when he came back to the UK for a funeral. When he was over here, I made every effort to try and see him. He didn't seem bothered. If I hadn't done this, he definitely wouldn't have bothered to see me, despite only being 30 minutes away from where I live.
Since then, I've heard from him once. He half-heartedly invited me to his wedding to his fiance, who I met when he was in the UK and she seemed nice enough. However, travelling to where he lives would've cost me and DP around £1000. He didn't offer to help us out financially so that we could be at his wedding, despite posting about a VERY extravagant purchase on Facebook a few days before contacting us.
On the whole, I feel like we have no relationship. I find it difficult, as my dad is a popular man with many friends. Everyone loves him. He seems to love his own family (sisters, nieces, nephews etc), but I genuinely do not believe he cares about me. I have never seen a glimpse of this wonderful man that everybody else seems to adore. I feel that he has always done the bare minimum to be in my life. I have absolutely no happy memories with him, that I can recall.
I often think of sending him a message telling him how I feel, and I believe life would be much easier if we just cut ties. But I worry about his reaction, and although I have no reason to be loyal to him, I'm scared of hurting him. But I know our situation isn't right. I've been lucky enough to have my grandad and stepdad as wonderful father figures, who have supported me and done anything for me.
Does anybody have experience of this type of relationship? I feel like I would be better off without his presence in my life (however small). Sorry for the ramble, I just wanted to get these thoughts off my chest and get some advice
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Should I cut ties with my dad?
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PJBanana · 18/08/2016 20:27
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