Hey all,
Some of you may know me as I've previously written about my bastard of an ex (DS dad).
Here are links to my previous thread, to give a back story:
www.mumsnet.com/Talk/relationships/2599577-do-i-owe-to-give-my-dp-sex
and my very recent..
www.mumsnet.com/Talk/relationships/2638818-Ive-fallen-right-back-into-his-trap-Is-he-really-just-using-me
all in all, I'm trying to move on from DS dad.
DS had his usual Taekwondo lesson with the group and his teacher yesterday. After the lesson had finish, when DS went with his group of Taekwondo mates to get changed, the teacher spoke to a few parents about how their DC's were doing with the lesson.
Then DS teacher came up to me and told me that DS is really improving, that he needs to improve on XYZ skill, but overall DS is doing great etc. This is a big thing for me as DS has SEN, and does take a long while to master new skills. He then began to ask me how my studies were ( he knows that I'm studying Art history at Uni) I did find the question odd but thought nothing about it I told him that it was going great and we talked about art a bit and I mentioned that I love going to museums, especially the National portrait museum etc etc. It was then that he said that "... there's a cool art exhibition going on at the minute-- we should definitely go there some time..". I did hesitate to be honest as I didn't really know what to say, I wasn't sure if he was just being polite? I'm not even sure if he was asking me out and anywhoo are teachers even allowed to date the parent of their pupils out?
I just laughed nervously and said "Noo, I'm really busy.." and he just nervously laughed too and said "don't worry, maybe some other time". Luckily by then, DS was calling me and we quickly made our excuses and went our way.
But as I was driving DS back home, I began thinking. The teacher is attractive, but his not my type. I'm ashamed to say that I am attracted to bad boys and their swag. Please don't torment me over this. I then began to fill sad as I couldn't imagine not ever being with DS dad, he was my first boyfriend and we were together for so long, I've spent the majority of my teenage years with him, how can I just let that go? I just want him to have my kids, I just want to have a family with him, I felt like calling DS dad and telling him that why is he such a shit father and so shit and abusive towards me, that our so called "relationship" could of worked if he wasn't such a douche bag. It just hurts so much. How can I let go of him?
To be honest, I'm not sure if I'm ready to date, I just want to be single for a while, discover myself. I was in a very toxic relationship with DS dad throughout my mid teens and early twenties, had DS very young etc. Would I ever be ready to let go and date?
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DS Taekwondo teacher asked me out- but I just can't :(
hollowintheriver · 18/05/2016 21:26
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