Hi
I'm a long-time lurker. Hoping for some ideas and support.
I'm in my late twenties and have never had 'full' (penis in vagina) sex. I get very scared and kind of freeze up, during sexual activity, even if i was really turned on and enjoying myself a few seconds before. I find it very hard not to feel guilty, then, for stopping. I feel under pressure - even if my partner is telling me there is no pressure, I can't believe them.
I also find closeness really hard, i alternate between needing tonnes of reassurance and contact to pushing people away. It's like the person I'm dating morphs in my mind between god-like and pathetic, i can't keep a stable image of them. Often i feel like ending the relationship is the only way to feel vaguely sane again.
I'm single again, and totally fed up that these issues have stopped me ever having a long term relationship. I feel so behind my peers in this respect.
I've not been sexually abused, but i think did some things i was uncomfortable with in a past relationship because i thought i was supposed to, that that was what girlfriends do. When i was growing up my mother could be verbally abusive and scary, which i think has a lot to do with my problems with closeness and my fear of people's anget.
Thanks for reading this far. I've started seeing a new therapist, but was hoping that people here could give some broader insight or experience. Feels scary to post about it but I'm just so sick of this problem.
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Porpoises · 17/04/2016 15:03
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