This is going to be long but I need to get this out and have no one to talk to IRL
My life is a complete mess. I'm married but cant call him DH so will refer to him as OH, we've been together since I was 15, I'm now 45, I've never even had a date with another man.
OH is completely consumed by his OCD which he's had for about 8 years, he promises to tackle it but does nothing about it.. I know it's a mental illness so have tried to support him but it now takes him 4 hours befote he can even keave the house. He has no friends, no hobbies, hasn't worked for 4 years, does nothing to help with our DD or the house.
This all came to a head in October when I was diagnosed with breast cancer, all through the chemo he has left me to deal with everything as usual. We've had a few talks where he promises to change, I believe him because I want our relationship to be like it used to but nothing changes, he bears no resemblence at all to the lovely caring man I married.
I'm due to have a masectomy a week tomorrow, I've been really upset tonight, im struggling coming to terms with it and asked him for some support and reassurance. His reaction to my tears was to walk away and make himself a coffee as he could deal with it.
We had a huge row and he apologised said he will change, etc, etc. I know he won't. He's a man child with issues but I'm I'll and will have my breast removed next week, no other man is going to want me.
We have an 8 year old DD who is already traumatised due to the changes she has seen me go through, I don't want to put her through any thing else.
I don't know what I'm asking here, I know I need to leave him but I'm scared of being on my own. I don't have any close friends I can count on just a few mum'sI chat to at the school gates. I have family but we're not very close and I don't feel I can rely on them. The cancer treatment has taken what was left of my confidence. It all just feels hopeless.
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I know I need to leave him
StormyLovesOdd · 03/04/2016 23:33
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