Name changed for obv reasons. Long post...
Background... Married nearly 10 years. 1 DS (9) and 2 DSS's (19 & 21 - at uni,stay with us each weekend during hols)
Husband 11 years older than me.
DH earns significantly more than me - i work pt to fit around school hours and was unemployed/sahm until last year.
House currently in DH name as was unemployed when bought and he thought this would be best.
I have been desperately unhappy for years, and now i have a job i'm considering putting aside some money and saving up to leave. I felt completely trapped when i was a sahm - was given a small allowance to buy food etc and questioned about every penny i spent. Was belittled constantly in front of kids, and DH and friends all sang Offspring 'Why Dont you get a job' at me on a night out. Put on a ton of weight. Had so little confidence I didnt take DS to any mother baby groups or the like. Mental health constantly questioned in front of kids.
Pre-DS, relationship quite aggressive - normally fuelled by drink. I no longer drink, so i am more able to control myself and walk away. DH drinks quite heavily, and is a total arse when had too much. Has told me more than once he's still sleeping with his ex (DSS's mum - no chance! Bizarre lie to make me feel insecure. Works).
No longer have full sex - mainly because DH can't keep erection. DH says this is because i'm too fat.
A few years ago, i did some voluntary work that DH didnt approve of. I made a few friends who came to visit - DH ignored them, which was really humiliating. He barely spoke to me for about 2 months.
We are in process of remortgage for home improvements. My name is going on mortgage. Found out this morning that DH hasn't sent the papers as he has an issue with my behaviour.
AIBU to 'behave' to make sure i get my name on this house?
I'm so down Ive started to 'go to the supermarket' just to cry in the car without my son seeing. I can't talk to my mum - very controlling in a nice-smothery way and would delight in dragging me and DS 200 miles to live with her.
Sorry for crazy rambling long post.
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