I'm sitting with a poorly DS whilst our already belated valentines meal sits on the table going cold.
A bit of background: OH and I are not married, we were dating for only 6 months when we were discovered we were pregnant with DS. A huge shock after he was told that he would probably never be able to conceive due to health issues in his teens. Goes without saying that we were both elated, albeit nervous.
Then the woes of pregnancy struck, I was treated for severe kidney infections all the way through and had a lot of time off work through illness. We had very little pleasant pre-baby time before DS arrived. I think I spent most of the pregnancy sleeping off illness.
DS was born: heart murmur and terrible reflux, lots of hospital appointments, lack of sleep, screaming DS and no time for us.We spent the first 6 months of DS' life holding him upright for the first 3-4 hours that hr slept to reduce projectile vomiting issues. We had no evenings as a couple.
DS is now 2 years old and the reflux issue has gone, however it's been replaced by an asthma/possible sleep apnea type issue which affects his breathing when asleep causing choking fits and yes, more vomit.
Because of all of DS' issues, we are anxious about leaving DS over night with anyone. We try to go out once a month, leaving DS in the care of grand-parents but sometimes, it's difficult.
OH and I are getting very little quality time as a couple, our sex life is awful and I feel like I've not even had chance to enjoy and get to know him before DS came along. I've gotten to the point where I'm feeling resentful and annoyed that OH appears to have accepted the way things are and makes little effort to plan special time together. It's like he's given up. I'm not blaming him- it's easy to understand why. I have to remind myself to make an effort too.
I'm feeling resentful in so many ways, I find it hard to see friends babies thriving with seemingly, few ailments, enjoying quality time with husbands once again. Not for us though. We don't plan to have more children as we want time to focus on us, will our time ever come? Or should I just give up all hope?
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oooshlapoosh · 17/02/2016 20:49
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