I'll try to give as much info as briefly as possible..
I was born when my brother (Asd) was 15 and my sisters 12 and 9. I never gelled with my Mum but i adored my sisters. They both got married within 2 months of each other when I was 11, i was devastated, not helped by Mum being obviously not happy just to have me at home. Sisters have never got on with each other, like chalk and cheese. I've always been in the middle, i got on with both and would try not to get involved with the bitching. They both had children, still never got on. Our Mum had huge illness 12 yrs ago that left her paralysied and unable to speak. I got married a few years later. At that time I was closest to my eldest sister as had realised the other one had been extremely controlling over me and was a general control freak. I had my first DC in 2009, eldest sister very much involved but then things turned. Just before i had DC1 my DH lost his job, he was therefore around a lot and as a result i didn't see my sister as much as we thought we would. The longer DH was out of work, the more he withdrew and if someone came round to see the baby, he would likely stay upstairs on PC jobhunting as embarressed about being out of work, but it actually was just plain rude. Just before DC1 was a year old I became pregnant with DC2, two days after we found out, DH's mum died suddenly. Two weeks later it was my nephew's 18th, i went to the party on my own as a) we had no babysitter and b) DH was not in right place mentally to go.
I didn't see much of sisters throughout pregnancy and towards the end, although we had asked my older sister to have DC1 whilst i was in labour/giving birth, she hadn't spent any time with him for over a month and as it turned out DC1 had a d&v bug 2days before I gave birth so DH's sister came to stay to look after DC1, my sister would never have stayed at my house. DC2 born, still not much contact from sisters. When DC2 was 6 months old my very dear workfriend of 10 yrs, and my step-in 'Mum' was given two weeks to live and died from cancer. Neither sister bothered calling to see how I was. Visits became non-existent. Both sisters started to become close for the first time in my memory. My birthday that year, they both came over the day before to give me my presents (never came together ever before) and said they'd just been for lunch. The fact it was my birthday the next day, they knew I never went out on my own and my DH was around to look after DC's and they never bothered asking me, told me exactly what they thought of me.
DC2 now 10 months old. Our Mum diagnosed with severe illness, the following week i get a voicemail message from Dad saying Mum's been given 24 hours and to get to hospital asap. I ring sisters to see what's going on, They are in car together on way to hospital, they got message 2 hours before. i ask why no one called me, they said they knew I had DC and they couldn't help with them so didn't think to call. It didn't even occur to them to speak to me just to talk about the news.
Mum died the following day.
2months later I call my sisters to ask why I don't hear from them any more, i'm upset and start to cry. Eldest sister, who hates any form of confrontation, says that DH and I shut everyone out after DC1 born, that she was hurt she didn't get to look after DC1 when I was having DC2 and she ended up saying that people change after they have kids and that basically I had changed so much that she felt our relationship was lost, I asked if we could ever get back what we had, she said she didn't think so. I was devastated. Other sister apologised for misunderstanding the day before Mum died but didn't get that the most hurtful thing was that I didn't matter enough for them to even speak to. She feels that as I'm the youngest i expect everything to revolve around me and it's not all about me. They both said how DH's behaviour in not seeing people has played a part too.
So, since then I only receive contact around birthday's, Easter and Christmas. We make contact near significant dates and they ask what * wants for their birthday, I tell them, they ask to 'pop' round on or near the day to give present. I usually have a small family party for DC that I ask them to, DH is never there as he doesn't want to see them, they never bring their kids, only come on their own. It is always false friendliness until their duty is done. I have tried contact at other times but they are either busy or don't answer my calls. I send nephews and neices either money or vouchers on their birthdays and christmas, give lottery tickets at Easter instead of eggs, I will more often than not not hear anything from them, no thank you at all.
DH thinks I should tell them where to go. He thinks they've hurt me enough, that all I do is doff my cap at them and be grateful for any bit of contact I get from them, he thinks they don't give a shit about us and all they're doing is their duty so they don't upset Dad. He says they abandoned us right when we needed them most - we had no mothers around for advice or to help, we've never had a night out together, our children never have anyone else take them out or just turn up and spoil them, my sisters have chosen to not be a part of that and our kids don't deserve it.
He's not wrong... All my life I've longed for our family to get back together and have a big family Christmas like when I was young, but it only dawned on me when Mum was ill that they never, ever wanted that. They see their family as them and their children, whereas I see my family as including them and my Dad too. I feel like maybe they never really gave a shit but it didn't show before i had my children.
So the latest is that Dad was ill before Christmas, thankfully fine now. But whilst he was ill i had regular contact with my sisters to arrange visiting etc and it was very obvious I was tolerated. Once Dad was back home, two weeks before Christmas, they both shut off. I asked to get together to exchange presents/see them for Christmas, but they both said (all friendly!) they were just too busy. The kids presents were dropped off at my Dad's for me to collect.
DH thinks I should tell them to poke their presents, what our kids need is someone in their lives that cares about them, not that turns up with a present on the 'correct' date. I've tried explaining that I can't do this, it will upset Dad too much. But then why am I going through this pretence every birthday? Every bloody time I think that maybe things will be different, maybe they're ready to move on and I'm all hopeful like some idiot puppy, only to be kicked in the teeth again...
What do I do? Are we to blame as much as they are? Or are they the spiteful bitches I'm beginning to think they are? Do I put up with the present farce every year?
I'm so, so hurt. My poor kids deserve so much more, I would love so much to be able to share the joy they bring with my sisters.
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Sisters - are they being awful or is it me?
tinfoilhat · 30/01/2016 02:56
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