Don't want to drip feed so this could be long...
I was married for 7 years to a violent man, when I left him I met a new partner within a week and threw myself into the relationship resulting very quickly in us having a child together.
New man, my recent Ex, turned out to be lazy, a sponger, nasty, emotionally abusive, addicted to weed. He would tell me I am fat and ugly after I had our child. He got me into debt. He never pulled his weight around the house.
We had a very turbulent year with me asking him to leave and then him wearing down my resolve. We never had sex because he was always too stoned. Anyway the summer before last I was texting another man, totally wrong I know, and ex found out and moved out. that was Sept 14.
Throughout 14/15 we were on and off with me constantly jumping through hoops to try to please him and 'make it up to him' for texting an ex.
By the end of 2015 we were both definitely single but neither seeing other people and still sleeping together occasionally. Ex is still pretty controlling, making me feel bad about the clothes I wear, not approving of me going out and always, always nasty comments and accusations about where I have been and what I am doing.
So sounds like I need to get rid, and I can see that myself....
Well last week I suspected he was seeing someone else. Great I should jump for joy, he will be out of my hair? Well no I was devastated, spent ages giving him grief over it, totally jealous, we ended up sleeping together and now I am jumping through hoops yet again to make him want me. He maintains he isn't seeing anyone.
What is wrong with me? I don't want a relationship with him, I know we are bad for each other, I don't understand why I am behaving this way?
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ConfusedAndAbused · 12/01/2016 10:40
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