My fiance and I broke up this week. He was cheating with a 22 year old from work. Found out from checking his phone.
I'm devestated, I can't believe he has done this to me. I'm angry that he's still lying , denying he's slept with her of course only admitting to some of it. There is zero chance of us working it out so why lie.
I feel like the man I thought I knew that loved me so much that wanted to spend the rest of his life with me is.. I don't know. He's gone and in his place is a selfish lying cheating coward.
I don't know how I can start to be ok with what has happened, our wedding day will pass by with no wedding and I will feel it all over again while he gets on with his life. I wish he would regret what he's done but I don't think he will.
Just need to get it out. I can't eat or sleep I never knew I could feel pain like this.
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jillyarmeen16 · 31/12/2015 11:57
aww op i'm so so sorry!! what an absolute tosser. I'm sure he will regret it and to be honest thank god you found out now so you're not tied to him. Try to think of it this way you would never choose to be with someone who could behave like this so he's not what you want anyway. I have been there and honestly in time you will see you totally dodged a bullet. For now be kind to yourself and look forward.Maybe plan a spa day on the wedding day, or get some friends round and do something. Make it the day I did not make a massive mistake. Your day will come. what a total dick. for you op
Emotional pain can be as persistent and intense as that of an abscessed tooth, but it will pass and you will come to realise that it is far better for you to have found out what manner of man he is before you tied the knot
Your discovery has turned your world upside down and, while that's been a shock to your whole system, you are also overwhelmed with grief at the loss of all of your hopes and dreams for the future.
Treat yourself as if you've gone down with a severe bout of 'flu. Make sure you drink plenty of fluids and try to eat easily digestible food such as scrambled eggs with bread and butter, nourishing soups, or a piece of poached smoked haddock with butter and a sprinkling of parsley - even if you can only manage a couple of mouthfuls it will help to keep your bloods stable
Be sure to keep warm when you're indoors - wrap yourself in a fluffy blanket and 'nurse' a hot drink in your hands. Run hot baths or showers and imagine all of your unhappiness going down the drain with the suds. Take a hot water bottle to bed and listen to Radio 4 to take your mind off its tendency to dwell on the one and only subject that's preoccupying it at the present time.
Rally your troops - all of those friends and relatives who can be trusted not to make you feel worse than you already do and vent your feelings. If the wedding venue has been arranged and preparations are underway, delegate someone to make all of the necessary cancellations and book yourself a holiday to somewhere you've never been before so that you'll be out of the country on the day.
Don't expect him to have any regrets as those who lack moral scruple are rarely able to focus on anything other than immediate gratification of whatever desires appear in their shallow minds.
Hold on to the thought that things happen for a reason and that in time you'll not only know why this happened, you'll also be immensely grateful it did.
Hang on in there - it WILL get better and you will be the better for it.
Think of things another way, OP. This is the first day of the rest of your life. Time to make it a good one.
You can't change what has happened, no matter what answers you need to hear, so close that chapter and move on. What you can do is ensure you decide what you want from your future and start laying the foundations for it.
Don't get angry with him, get better by living well..........on the foundations you laid/are laying for the better life you want. You can and will move on with your life OP. It'll be hard at first, but with a little faith in yourself, you can achieve loads and moving on will become 2nd nature.
Hope you get through this without too much trouble 
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