I find it so hard to explain. From previous posts you will see DH left me and our DD.
I believe he was emotionally abusive possibly to both of us. He had a weed smoking habit which really affected all our lifes, so much that we basically revolved around his habit.
Anyway his moods became so much that after one episode I found I could no longer bounce back, I usually let him have his moods, ignore them and then when he felt ok again, we would carry on as normal. But this time I couldn't. He blamed me, I made him that way, I drove him to drink and drugs, and I believed him.
He left 8 weeks ago, is out enjoying himself, I don't think he is any happier but whenever I reach happiness the guilt sets in that I shouldn't be feeling this way.
I had a kiss with someone on Christmas night, I felt a little alive again, then the guilt sets in again.
Our DD is happier in the way we are now, but I feel guilty as maybe I could have done more to prevent all this.
Sorry, I just needed to see if this was normal?
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I feel so guilty and just a horrible person!
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needhelpandadvice · 29/12/2015 13:46
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