Hi.
I don't really know the point to my post, other than these message boards have been helping me in the process of getting over someone. But I'm feeling deflated again and just need to air my thoughts I guess.
I posted here before as I've broken up with a man who quite frankly was no good for me.
I have fought the urge to reactivate my Facebook account again, to snoop on him or the women he was 'messing around with'. I have finally started counselling sessions to work on my self esteem as well as other areas of my life. I have not contacted him or gone out if my way to bump into him (all the things I would usually do).
On the whole, I'm proud of myself. It's been so tough. I miss him, but accept I miss the old him. But what I'm still struggling with is the rejection. It makes me feel there is something wrong with me. I keep expecting him to text or reach out. I know as childish as it seems, I want the chance to reject him. But know that he is still thinking of me. If that makes any sense?
My mind still wanders now and then, imagining him doing all the nice act and gestures with another woman etc. And it just hurts. But then I try to convince myself that one day, he will do exactly the same to them as he did to me.
I've managed to keep busy as best I can. Tried online dating but was so disappointed. It seems no one is looking for anything meaningful.
I'm thinking the best thing is to learn to be happy in myself, without relying in a man to make me happy. But I get lonely. Will this pass?
How can I fight these feelings of rejection or not feeling good enough? It's crazy, because I know in my mind that I was too good for him. But I still feel this way?
Sorry for rambling ....
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roseyrain · 09/08/2015 13:42
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