I've NC for this but I would really appreciate a few different perspectives. I'm sorry if it's really long but I imagine it will be!
I'm 24 and my boyfriend is 27 and together for 3 years. We were first together when I was 17 but it didn't work out. He was my first love and even with boyfriends after that I always knew he was the one. We both grew up and changed so when we got back together I was ecstatic! We now have a very loving happy relationship. We had 1 issue about two years ago but other than that things have been great and I've never been happier. We have spoke about what we want in the future and pretty much agree on how we want our lives to go. At the moment we don't live together but I spend every night at his anyway (we are both at home with parents saving money.)
Anyway for the last month things have felt different and he hasn't seemed himself. I asked him 2 weeks ago and he said it was because of his work - it's very quiet and he spends his 10 hour days doing very little/nothing. I had a feeling it would be this so was somewhat relieved.
Anyway a week later he went to Scotland for work for 4 days. They offered work and he snapped it up. He came back happier which obviously I felt was a good thing. Things have been more 'normal' since - or so I thought.
Last night though we had our first hiccup in 2 years! We literally never argue so it felt horrible - it wasn't even an argument just a bit of weirdness and bad atmosphere. Eventually it all came out that he was very unhappy. He then went on to say it's mainly his job but also a bit of everything. He isn't good at talking but I managed to get it out of him - he said when he's happy with his life he's very happy with me but when he's feeling unhappy with everything in life (like now) that's when he's a bit confused about us. Most of the time he said he really wants to be with me but there's those rare minor few times when he "isn't sure" which happens to be when things are a bit crap for him in general. He also said when he went to Scotland for work he wasn't too keen on the fact he felt like he had to text me every day or call me on an evening. Obviously that hurt but I asked for honesty and that's what I got. He felt like I wanted texts all day which I didn't - I don't want to talk to anyone constantly all day. So I'm putting that down to assumptions because this is the first time in our relationship he's worked away.
He said he loves me though and wants us to be okay. There isn't anyone else. He said it isn't even something I do/don't do. Just that he's feeling unhappy with everything.
He said he's never felt this unhappy before - his job is quiet, parents nag him a lot, he's yet to have his own place. He's really down. We both have very high sex drives but lately he doesn't seem up for it as often -
I asked him if he would go to the doctor (possible depression?) but he said no.
I made it absolutely clear that I want to be with him and do whatever it takes to make it work. I told him should he want to move away for work I would go. I am prepared to do anything. I have a pretty crap job so I don't have much keeping me here where as he has a career.
He's never had a girlfriend other than me and I told him I sometimes worry that he doesn't know whether what he's feeling is normal. Things are never perfect all the time for any couple! I have previous relationships to "compare" to - he doesn't.
I just don't know. I'm a very anxious person and when it comes to relationships (boyfriend, family, friends) and if things aren't great I get really anxious which makes me feel ill.
Things today seem absolutely fine. He's his normal self and we even had sex last night and this morning - something which is normal for us but lately as I said he doesn't want it as much because of how he's been feeling.
I can't imagine life without him, he is the absolute love of my life and I just want this to work out. I don't know what to do - I don't want to feel constantly anxious but because he's usually very emotionally strong I have never had to worry about this :(
The fact he's told me he still loves me and he wants it to work is obviously a good thing. But at the moment when he's feeling down about his life - how can I help prevent him from making drastic changes that he wouldn't do if he was feeling normal?
Sorry for the length!
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Gojigoji · 08/08/2015 13:45
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