I apologise in advance... this is going to be a long one!
I'm an identical twin. I've always had a complicated but loving relationship with my twin. I would do pretty much anything for her, but recently I'm beginning to find her behaviour worrying and distressing.
A bit of background... My twin's 'marriage' broke down and she left her husband, moving back to the UK from abroad, at around 14 weeks pregnant. Her marriage was one of convenience: she wanted a child, he wanted residency/citizenship in the UK. The breakdown therefore wasn't terribly emotional (it was violent though) and I believe she's over him. She was married to him for just over a year.
Then the unimaginable happened: she had to give birth to a stillborn baby. Both my mum and I were at the birth and I think we were comforting, though of course we were all hurting terribly. There was never any explanation as to why this happened, just that it sometimes does.
Fast forward a few years, and our other sister has had the most gorgeous little boy, conceived via IVF and by a difficult and distressing route (she was hospitalized during the first trimester because of complications you only get from fertility treatment). This sister has recently paid privately to have another round of IVF and has just announced that she will be having twins early next year. This is, of course absolutely wonderful news and as a family, we're over the moon. Again, though she's not been well, having to spend a month in hospital.
I myself am 33 weeks pregnant (my twin's baby made it to 32+6 so it's been very difficult for me to imagine getting to this point).
My twin's behaviour is increasingly worrying.
She recently announced to my mum and myself that she is pregnant and happens to be due at around the same time as my other sister. Her pregnancy is the result of a one night stand. She refuses to tell our other sister about her pregnancy as she says she will judge her, they'll fall out etc etc (other sister will be jealous of her fertility blah blah blah).
Last night she said to me "I can't tell sister because if something happens to her twins she'll blame me" I said that was ridiculous and that she needed to tell our other sister, as no one likes to be left out and that she's going to find out sooner or later.
She's 'joked' that she wanted to take my baby as she deserves it more than me. This is obviously extremely distressing for me. I have that mothering instinct to protect my child no matter what!
She threatened suicide because she didn't get a job she'd applied for... She's never going to apply for another job again, she can't take the rejection etc etc.
I told her I need her in my life, which she said was selfish. As in I'm saying that her sole purpose in life is to be my sister (NOT what I meant at all, just that however bad she's feeling, I need her and love her).
She says she'll have to live on some god-awful council estate as a single mother with no means to support herself. I even said she could move in with me and my husband (and our baby) even though we don't really have the space (baby would have to kip in with dh and I indefinitely so hardly ideal). She said she couldn't bum off of us, which I replied that she could pay us in kind and do the odd babysitting... She said she wouldn't want to look after someone else's kid! Made me feel like a shit for offering her help!
This was all said over the phone. She lives around 4 hours from me so I can't just drop everything and go to her (pregnancy and all) so now I'm thinking if she does do something it'll be my fault for upsetting her.
I am actually feeling like I can't do anything at all to help her and that she's rejecting me (probably because she was rejected for the job she went for...) and even thinking I don't want her in my life any more. I know that if I do cut her out she'll paint me to be the bitch who left her in her hour of need etc. But I can't take this. I cried myself to sleep last night. I feel so sad, I want to help her but everything I suggest she throws back in my face.
What can I do or say to make her feel better? I feel completely out of my depth.
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ARV1981 · 31/07/2015 11:57
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