Ok here goes, not posted in this section before so be gentle!
Been with DH for 12 years, married for 4. We have one DS aged 2 and are TTC no2 (unsuccessful for 18 months now).
Things are "fine" with DH - I mean we both now focus so much on our DS, and we have little quality two time, but we still love each other dearly. However the sex has become very much functional of the TTC variety. I can't remember the last time we had sex for fun - but it was before we got married.
So we are plodding along, when I find myself thinking (a lot) about my first BF. This guy was my first love and we were together off and on from age 16-21 or so. Very formative years and we shared a lot, although he also treated me like crap on occasion. So I don't really understand why I am so fixated on him? We are FB friends and see each other very occasionally at school reunions etc. I had a lunch for old school friends on Sunday and he came (my DH wasn't there). We spent the preceding day texting each other which I supposed verged towards the flirtatious. We had a long hug goodbye.
I don't know what to think - why can't I get this person out of my head? It's been 15 yrs since we were together! Am I projecting the current frustrations I have onto him?
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Am i being emotionally unfaithful?
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PipAndPosey · 14/07/2015 17:28
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