I've NCd for this.
My therapist has recommended that I have EMDR for multiple/complex trauma. It goes back to some time before I was 5. And basically I grew up an outwardly happy, affectionate child, but terrified of my mother who was physically abusive and who told me that she had the right to do whatever to my body because she was my mother. She was also physically abusive with my brother - more so perhaps - and I can still hear it after nearly 30 years. I left home at 18 and then ended up being (date - if it makes any difference) raped by many of my boyfriends, on multiple occasions.
I thought I had PTSD symptoms before and had them under control, but they're coming back. It's awful, so I will go for EMDR.
However, I'm wondering if anybody has done it for multiple traumas, over many years and it's WORKED? I'm so, so scared that I'll put my hope in it and it won't work, because it's not a single event.
I also still can't attach what happened to me as abuse, it's coming, but not quickly, and I can't get the idea that I've been raped many, many times into my head: it's like it must have happened to someone else, yet I know rationally what happened.
If you had it, especially for similar issues, did your triggers really not trigger afterwards? I have lived my entire adult life dealing with them, I can't imagine not having any.
Well, I almost can and it's scary that it could be within reach, but then not make it.
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