I feel like going to bed and just staying there until its all over.
Usual Christmas trials and tribulations. Supposed to be one year at my parents and one year at home, this year is home, and have h probably quite rightly digging in his heels about not going to my parents until after dinner, but my mum moaning that she won't see the dc and won't be able to give them their presents as too many people about. She wants us to drive to them and open presents then go home and prepare our dinner. The reason for wanting Christmas at home I our dc (17, 12 &8) are late wakers and we always feel so rushed going to my parents its like up rip open presents and then get dressed and go to nanny and granddads, no you can't look at what you've got we haven't got time. then same there rip open presents and hide them in the car before other guests get there and pass judgement on how much the dc have got.
we want to just get up in own time, open presents have a nice breakfast, perhaps gp's come over with the dc presents, then prepare lunch and a nice walk before going to visit gp's and other endless relatives who we never see in between. I don't think its too much to ask, but apparently I'm ruining my mums Christmas.
I transferred some money from one bank to another and now its in limbo, I didn't 'need' it but had plans for it and didn't want to go to town on Christmas eve. I can not go, as have everything I initially planned on buying and a few bits extra, but had some extra money and wanted to buy something nice.
I often find myself wondering if I love H or if I'm just sticking it out as the flip side separating and being on my own is scary. Arguments between him and ds1, and im expected to side with one of them, when they are both being arses.
Then to top it off ds1 (17) has had his college report and hes failing. His attendance is unacceptable and hes obviously been lying to us about going to college. He doesn't have a job, but has today been constantly going on about an iphone 6 and on a contract and its only £48 month! He Chose his college course and is in the second year of it. We had problems at the beginning of this year and I thought we had resolved them, not handing in or completing assignments etc.
ds2 (almost 13) well what can I say gone from a loving caring, delightful boy to a horrible angry mess. Constantly shouting at his 8yr old sister, slamming doors and being awful. Losing money, not reading messages or answering his phone, just not turning up after school and then coming home and oh I forgot to text to say I was at x's house.
I don't want to be a grown up anymore, I just want to go and sleep until its all over.
No replies expected just wanted to rant and get it all own. Iknow I am lucky in many many ways, just feeling sorry for myself.
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