A bit of background information......
DH and I separated 7 months ago, we have 3 DC ages 4-9.
Our marriage was unhappy towards the end, he's an alcoholic and was drinking, we hadn't had sex for a year and there were constant problems with the aggressive way he spoke to DD (9).
I met a man who I fell in love with, when I realised what I was feeling I left DH. He was understandably hurt and furious.
DC and I moved out and are now renting somewhere. DC seem happy both at home and at school and we regularly speak about how they're feeling.
DM, DB, my grandmother and a couple of friends have all turned their backs on me for what I've done. This is incredibly hard to deal with.
My relationship with my partner is good, we are happy.
Me and ex-DH are getting on well, although he says he is still in love with me and will wait for me. He is still drinking a lot and this worried me.
A week ago I found out I'm pregnant. My partner is very happy, wheras I feel very apprehensive.
I can't stop crying, I feel really alone, I'm missing my family and ex-DH - although I think the latter is more guilt. I don't know if it's my hormones, one minute I'm content and exited, then I'm busting into tears and feeling suicidal... I would never go through with it as I have 3 wonderful children who need me but feeling like this is scaring me. ...
At times I feel like I've not only wrecked my own life but that of everyone around me, then an hour later I feel like I've made the right decision....
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Pickle101 · 20/12/2014 09:57
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