Hi all,
I am not sure this is the right section of the forum but it seem to get some traction, so will post here.
I have quite an abstract question and plea for resources - books, websites, anything. The thing is I am fed up of feeling weak and powerless. I feel like a small child, full of fear.
There are objective reasons for it - I am alone in a foreign country with a child, working full time and being his only carer, etc. Of course, it is very hard, also not having family around, not having your home - renting, being most often very tired (demanding work), and having to do everything by myself.
But: I have a very good job, I am successful in my career and my son is a joy (he also 10, so much easier than before). To people outside I appear as a very strong person.
And this is what I want to feel inside. But instead, I am doing all this, like a little frog pedalling doggy style, to survive; often I feel I am just surviving. I also think my parents and society trained me to feel weak and powerless as a woman. Despite the fact that they always supported me in studies, etc, there were things that were always marked as too difficult for a girl: to walk 20 km as a 12 year old, etc. My mother especially felt very weak when my dad left on a rare business trip, she would often get ill, things will break in the house and we'll be waiting for him. I often panic when something goes wrong in the house - I wish I could feel more hands on! But obviously there are many layers in this, more than just handywork.
I have divorced my husband, and now I feel like an orphan. I really want to stop feeling this. How do I do this?
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olguis · 07/12/2014 19:48
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