I'm a longtime lurker but I really need advice.
Background is that me and husband have been together 20 years, married for 14 and we have a 5 yr old. We are mostly happy but got into a bit of a rut I suppose. Sex life isn't great as he only comes near me if he's had a few drinks which isn't that often, maybe once every 6 to 8 weeks. I've brought this up to him a few times and he'll always say he'll make an effort but so far, he's not. Relationship has been quite hard work the last 2 years but it seems like it's getting better.
First of all, I'm going to say that I have no problem with porn, I'm not a prude and I'm honestly not a snooper, well I wasn't ! I've always asked him if he looked at it but of course he denied it even though it wouldn't have bothered me.
Anyway, I was on another parenting website and there was a topic where the girl was concerned about her partners internet use, he had deleted the history but because his gmail was logged in, it Apparantly is still stored somewhere. So I had never heard of this so I go onto gmail on our tablet and the husband is always logged in so I had a quick look and of course he had been looking at porn. Not excessively but I was gutted cos of his lies and because he hardly comes near me. So I confronted him and he admitted it, said he was embarrassed...usual crap. I told him that the only thing that bothered me is that he lied about it.d this was in May this year so fast forward to last month and I decided to check up on him and checked the history and no porn. Until I clicked a section where it gives you the most searched items and number 5 was free porn ! The others were websites I go onto every day. So I told him that I was peed off that he lied once again and that although he had deleted stuff, the fifth most searched thing was free porn so he had been caught out. He insisted that he hadn't and that he wouldn't even know how to delete stuff so I just left it.
Anyway, on Saturday night, we had a few drinks in the house and did the deed but it was kind of different but in a good way, he was a bit more talkative during sex and stuff. Now recently there has been a huge pressure taken off him at work and various other things which could maybe explain it ....however, I snooped again and free porn was still good old number 5 on the list ! So I looked back and there was nothing on the history. Now originally when this saga all started and I found the porn on the history it was from April...fair enough but when I checked on Sunday it had been deleted so I check back further and he must have deleted all his free porn searches....so much for not knowing how to delete it !!
Thank you if you hVe read this so far ! I'm not going mad am I ? He's still looking at porn and trying to hide it isn't he ? I'm gutted about this, he lies....stupid lies.
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Muggins66 · 03/11/2014 09:37
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