It's going to be a long message for what I apologise.. I haven't posted on MN before, but I've found a lot of the relationship advice on here very useful. It got me thinking that I might be in an abusive relationship myself..
I must say that my dh looks like a perfect man from first glance and is never violent or uninvolved and loves our dd very much. I'm sure there are subtle ways that he uses to put me in my place and it makes me very unhappy. He is aware that I have no other close relationships here as I left my family and friends when I moved from abroad.
The problem got worse when I lost a source of my income a few weeks ago and as a sahm I became completely dependent on him. We had a conversation where I asked if we could have a joint account and he said he wouldn't want to give me access to his existing account because he doesn't trust me. After I was trying to persuade him, he drew up a list of things "examples of me double-crossing him" as he puts it. In it he put things that happened quite a few years ago and that we talked out ( and decided to stay together and had a dd after that), but also things like "you said you needed to go home to sleep, but instead you were ordering online groceries".
I do get emotional when he calls me 'untrustworthy' (I feel I am doing everything for the benefit of my family) and it's especially painful when he says he doesn't take me seriously if I cry. I asked how could we live as a family if he doesn't trust me and he said that I needed to 'earn his trust' first.
I feel completely trapped in this situation. I know that there is a lack of respect from both sides (I hate that he treats me this way), but the power imbalance is like an elephant in the room and this is why I think he isn't trying so hard.
I don't know what to do, but I can't go on like this anymore :(
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Feeling stuck in this relationship :(
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Not4plebs · 22/03/2014 19:13
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