I think I'm having a mid life crisis. When I was younger I thought by this age I'd be settled and doing family life.(40). How naive.
I suffered badly when dp cheated. I walked away with dd and swore I'd never trust another man. Years went by.I concentrated on her/us/career/house etc. Miss Independant. But I realised underneath I was lonely. So i started dating again. Daunted but enjoyed the meeting of new faces. Met some really love men who seemed keen, wanted allthe things a girl wanted to hear. But I wasn't ready to commit. Fear of being hurt stopped me. So I kept it light. Then I met HIM! We just clicked straight away. We talked for hrs. We had passion. We had similar interests but also independant interests. One problem. He lived over an hr away and problem 2. He was hurt by last relationship. So didn't want to get serious. I understood and just went along.
That was a few years ago. We have gone through so much together. dd and himself get on great. But due to work we see each other less now. He is under fierce pressure. I have been so supportive, wanting to see the end of this pressure of work to have a happy normal relationship where we can hopefully shorten the gap between us. I won't up sticks until I know for certain we have a future. But my problem is, I love him, i fear like anyhow what the future holds but i want him by my side. But he still has an attitude that marriage fails. all couples run aground and die after years. I say but we're still here and he replies yes we are. But will change the subject. I have asked him straight out is there a future and he tells me to stop worrying, at the moment work is pressure that he has to focus on. But slowly i'm dying inside. I can't keep the pretence up that I have waited around long enough. I want him but afraid i'm wasting my years. I never thought i'd find love like this again. I look at couples blissfully happy, or even argueing who didn't put out the bins and I'm jealous. They have what I want. I know work comes first. But I don't feel like a priority. He is so bad with his feelings and altough says he loves me and wants to be with me and dd. I don't see actions reflecting that. I think he's afraid of commitment.
Any advice. Do men change? I know he has changed hugely in his attitude about relationships since me but I'm not sure enough to want to commit fully. And if he can't they I haveto leave. He knows this and it doesn't help the relationship. But I don't want to waste more years with someone and find myself old and resentful. I'm so unhappy and just want our future to be seen in the present. I can't htink properly and it is in my head daily. When he goes back home it hits me again and I feel my life is empty and I'm being used. All negative thoughts that are bringing me down and certainly not helping the relationship. Dont know what to do. Any advice?
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middleagecrisis · 17/03/2014 00:01
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