Hello,
Not proud of myself at all, but had several affairs during my marriage, one lasting seven years. I was
't found out, but decided I'd found 'the one' four years ago and asked to separate.
I'm living with our two children, my ex lives with his parents, and supports me and the children financially. He is very good about this, we have a lot of joint debt and can't afford to divorce.
'The one' turned out not to be him after all and I finished it. He still contacts me regularly, as does the one from the long affair - I do not encourage this at all.
I have met someone else and we are close. He just feels right for me. All going well, apart from the awful guilt I feel about my ex being alone. I just know he won't move on. We see each other often, things are amicable and we got on really well. I sometimes think about getting back with my ex, for financial reasons and because I know it would make him happy, and my line easier because I wouldn't have this guilt, which is truly weighing me down so much
If it was just a question of friendship I could do it, but there is no physical desire there at all. I just can't imagine kissing him, let alone being intimate with him.
I feel so bound up with him, we've been together for nearly 28 years, and he has no friends so I'm all he has.
I just don't know what to do.
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Xena984 · 26/02/2014 23:14
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