I've been thinking more and more about her death and wishing it upon her and I don't know how to move on from it.
She is an alcoholic, has been for over 10 years now. She made my childhood hell, pretty sure her emotional abuse led to my breakdown. She is also a very manipulative person who isn't afraid to tell lies in order to gain attention. Recently found out she told everyone she knows that I had died she's said the same about her sisters. She's also told me that she has cancer and cried on my shoulder while I supported her. It's all lies.
The only person she cares about is herself and I'm not sure why I still have her in my life. She has no one else left, I suppose she is a vulnerable lady with obvious undiagnosed MH issues and I feel terrible guilt whenever I think of going NC.
I just want her to die. That way I'd feel no guilt over her and can move on with my life. I just feel like an awful person for even thinking that way, worried I'm becoming like her.
Feels a bit better getting that out! Not expecting any replies to something so grim but if anyone has any advice that'd be marvellous.
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Don't know how to get past this - want my mum to die.
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DontLetTheMugglesGetYouDown · 01/12/2013 18:53
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