Hi, I’m asking for your advice, but also dreading it too because I know I am largely to blame.
I’m 50 and I’ve been married for 24 years. We have twin teenage daughters. My husband and I have barely communicated for over three years while living under the same roof. On the rare occasions we do communicate it ends in a row.
He hates me because I have been financially irresponsible; he has paid the mortgage and bills over the years. As the girls have got older I have gradually increased my working hours and I’m now almost full-time. I pay for our food, give the girls an allowance and pay for their clothes, trips etc. I have debts which he doesn’t know about (almost £9,000) which I’m repaying through a bank loan. I have frittered money away on clothes, hardback books etc when I should have taken some of the financial strain from him.
Ideeply resent him because he is virtually emotionless and has been for many years. He works away all week, comes home on a Friday night, switches on the TV and watches until 1.00 am drinking beer. Saturday he wakes up at 9.00 am, switches on the TV, watches it until 1.00 am and goes to bed. Same again Sunday. He rarely turns his head to speak or communicate with the girls and certainly not too me although he does give them lifts to their Saturday jobs etc and I know he loves them. He rarely speaks to anyone and doesn’t see any of his mates. He seems to prefer total isolation and the TV.
If you’d told me that you could live under the same roof with someone in a situation like this for years I wouldn’t have believed you but we continue. It is easier not to speak rather than row in front of our daughters and a divorce would mean selling the house and breaking up the family home.
I can’t stand the TV on all day, his drinking and the mutual resentment but can’t bring myself to start the divorce process and I feel ashamed of my own part in this, too.
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AmyTanFan · 20/11/2013 01:07
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