DH had an affair. We have decided to try and rebuild our marriage, and we're mostly getting there. The issue I have isn't to do with this but something that happened a few years ago, but it's making the moving on difficult.
DH was away for a couple of days on business. He took an old friend (female) out for a meal as they both happened to be in the same town. I was fine with this until he got home and was unpacking. I was sat on the bed chatting when he became very cagey and closed his suitcase with just his hankies left in it. He then went into the bathroom and something, god knows what, made me get up and check the hankies. Nestled in among them was a condom. We had been using condoms for a few months until his all clear on his vasectomy and this was the last one - but why had he taken it with him?
I challenged him immediately, and instead of answering, he went quiet and walked out of the room. I went after him and eventually he said, he found it among the hankies (it was in the same drawer) and thought I wouldn't believe him so he hid it from me.
My immediate thought was that he clearly hadn't used it while away this time but if he took it with him deliberately then he must have been vaguely certain that he might have the opportunity i.e. he'd been there before (he worked frequently away with this woman, but at the time I wasn't worried).
This issue was never resolved. I was depressed and I'm only just coming out of it, so I basically just pigeon holed it and ignored it, we were rarely intimate due to lots of issues so it just laid there festering for 4 years.
With his admittance of this affair, I obviously brought back up this incident. He swears blind that he never did anything with her, or ever wanted to. He has admitted to lots worse than this, so why not admit to it if he did do something?
So, I have a choice
- believe him - he was fairly safe in the knowledge that it wouldn't affect us getting back together if he did admit to something, so why continue to lie?
- ask someone who was there working at the same time. 1 guy works for us, 1 is DH's friend. Not professional to ask first and second has more loyalty to DH than me.
- let it carry on festering which is not good for our recovery.
I want option 1 but just don't know how to do it, how do I stop the doubts creeping in?