Hi,
I'm new to this and literally cannot speak to anyone else. I've been with DH for nearly 8 years, married for 5, we have DD aged 3 and DS age 2.
DH has had depression after a traumatic event not long after we got married and has had some nasty bouts of it. During one particularly horrible time in hospital with him I found out that during our relationship he has been addicted to porn and chat lines and has visited prositutes and strip clubs. He was very ill and I wanted him to get better and for the family to move on. We've been to counselling and he is now very open about where he is, leaves his phone lying around, promises he's changed.
Sounds good now, but the thing is, I just don't feel the same. I know he's sorry and he's doing everything he can to make life better and be a good husband/father. He's still having treatment and changing jobs to be nearer to home. I know he's doing all he can, but it feels like my heart has dried out and become hard. I can't love him the same way, even though I want to. I fantasise of living with the kids without him. But he's still so fragile I don't see how I can leave. His illness makes him think of suicide, and although he's never attempted it, I can't risk him harming himself. I love him, but not it the way I used to. How can I make this right? What can I do? Any advice hugely appreciated xx
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Imnotagilmoregirl · 16/05/2013 17:12
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