Not sure if I am in the right place and sorry that this is long...
I had quite an up-and-down childhood with my parents. My sis and I never wanted for material things but they had a very unstable marriage, there were constant screaming matches and they often tried to make us "choose" who we would live with if they split up. They turned sulking into a sport and would blank each other for days, weeks in some cases following arguments.
My dad had a terrible temper, we were in constant fear. He would go crazy over the smallest thing then hit us for doing wrong (e.g. If we accidentally broke a toy) then spend the rest of the time saying sorry.
We were bullied terribly at school as we were both painfully shy (I think because we were scared to speak at home incase of being on the receiving end of anger) that we couldn't ever stand up for ourselves.
We didn't ever DO much, I don't ever remember baking or reading or any of that stuff with my parents. I can count on one hand the number of times my mother has told me she loved me.
I have a DD now, I never thought it was possible to love someone as much as I love her. I absolutely adore her and I have resolved that I will not follow in my parents footsteps. I want my daughter to be confident, secure and loved.
But that's the problem, sometimes I feel my temper rising and that I am impatient like my father. I would never raise a hand to anyone but I have shouted at DD when she cries sometimes.
I feel like I don't know what to do with her, like I don't really know what makes a good mum. Everyone says she's a content, happy little baby so I guess I am doing something right but how can I make sure I am a good mum?
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paintyourbox · 05/05/2013 22:16
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