I haven't been on here for a bit. Got lots of support last year when I finally left my unhappy marriage.
It's been five months now that we are living apart and it feels like it's getting harder not easier.
At the beginning it was so liberating, not being stuck with dh, the tension, the distance. Having my own space.
Now I just ache with loneliness. I'm so low I don't contact my friends, who are all married and busy anyway. My phone doesn't ring or beep.
When the kids are with me I'm happy, though it's hard work.
When they are with their dad I am so miserable and wonder if it was worth it. I'm trying not to drink, it dulls it but I have no 'off' button and feel worse the next day.
Please can anyone tell me how I move on, deal with the guilt and pain of separation, make my life better - practical steps.
I can't face internet dating and feel washed up at 42.
How do I start again and find something to smile about. This long winter has worn me out completely :(
Sorry to moan.
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novelty of singledom has worn off; just terribly lonely now
tiredofwaitingforitalltochange · 07/04/2013 00:23
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