I have posted here before about my husband. We have been together 7 years and apart from the first 6 months, the majority of the time has been miserable.
In the past he has spit on me, pushed me, kicked me and head butted me. He once shoved me so hard that he dislocated my shoulder. The worst thing though has been the constant verbal abuse:name calling, shouting, swearing and long silent periods. He stopped being violent when we married 4 years ago but stepped up on the verbal.
Two weeks ago I asked him to leave, which he did. At the weekend though he came back to visit our 5 year old daughter. I don't know why I did his, but I had sex with him whilst our daughter was asleep. He gave a very half hearted apology for calling me names on one particular occasion and decided that he was moving back but that we would be more "housemates". From now on he will be going out pretty much all weekend. If I want to go out I will have to get a babysitter. Oh, and if I'm really lucky he may occasionally have sex with me.
My youngest daughter is over the moon that daddy has come home. My eldest 2 (aged 12) are not so thrilled and neither am I.
I thought I was moving on and getting things sorted before this. My daughter was upset obviously, but I could see a way forward. I'd made an appointment with a really good solicitor (which I've now cancelled), booked an estate agent to value the house and also sorted out my work situation so that I could get a mortgage (went from self employed to permanent contract starting 1st April).
Now I just feel paralysed almost. I don't want the children upsetting but of course they are going to be very confused and unsettled with all this instability. I don't know what to say to them so I have said nothing. They think we are back together.
Last night he was vile to me again. I asked if we could talk and he point blank refused and called me all sorts of names, mainly preceded by the word "fucking". He slept in the spare room and I started crying and just couldn't stop. Proper racking sobs. Later on I could hear him snoring and I honestly wanted to take my pillow and smother him with it.
What should I do? I can't change the locks as he also owns the house and pays half the bills (which I cannot afford on my own). I can't claim tax credits as I can't really say we've separated with all this coming and going. I think I need to rebook the solicitors appointment but my thoughts are all over the place. Plus how do I deal with the children? Just don't know what to say to them. He left this morning with a bag as I know he's working away until Thursday but after that I really don't know what to do.
Please could someone help with some wise words?
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Please help. I have no idea what to do about abusive husband
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northcountrygirl · 19/03/2013 07:18
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