I hate him right now....

[moonfacebaby]

My H had an affair earlier this year.

It was the most horrendous shock & like do many others, he never seemed the type.

We limped on after - his ambivalence was what made me call it a day.

He started the affair when our DD2 was just over3 months old & we'd battled 4 miscarriages to get her.

He threw everything away - 14 years together - for some 26 year old, who didn't kind his ring or the baby. She'd only been in this country for 5 weeks & she had a boyfriend too.

So, after 6 months of his mixed messages, we were over.

Tonight was the night that we told DD1, who is 7, that we are splitting up. It was horrendous - the first thing she said was "but you said you've together forever" which is what the stupid fucker said months ago, when all this kicked off (she didn't know, they were just talking about a friend from her school). He told me that at the time & I went mad, then he denied he'd said it!!!

Then she begged us not to do it to her, I couldn't say a thing & started crying too. She said she'd never forgive us. And all he kept blathering on about was that we don't love each other, but we are still friends.

I just held her & kissed her. And shot fire out of eyes at him over her head.

She eventually came round, but was manic & then you'd see her beautiful eyes look so, so sad.

I fucking hate him. I will do my best to be friendly for my daughters sake but I will never forgive him for what he's done to her & her world. Seeing your baby in pain like that - all because he's having some mid- life crisis, I just could kill him right now.

I could take the pain he's caused me. The rewriting history, getting arsey about mates knowing about his affair, the mind-bending lies & deceit - but hurt our child like that - I despise him right now.

I hope he gets a massive dose of hideous karma for his unbelievably selfish behaviour.

Nothing in our marriage ever justified this.

[OpheliaPayneAgain]

So long as you dont pass you rhate to your daughter, who has every right to have a loving relationship with her father that isn't jaundiced.

[moonfacebaby]

I would never do that to her.

My utmost priority is my daughters well being.

[SucksToBeMe]

I hate him too op. fucking asshole.

[moonfacebaby]

Sorry for typos - was so upset .....and he is a fucking asshole...

[Wecanfixit]

So sorry this has happened to you and your beautiful girl, stay strong honey your girl will be your shining light when you think how the hell am I going to get through this?, you will honest I know what it is like your pain , as 20 years ago same kinda thing happened to me , my girl is now 21 a young woman and got her head screwed on , sees her father who works abroad occasionally but it works for her , we are good friends her and me , and I thank goodness she is well balanced and normal and having a good life , take care of you and your girl all the best to you, BIG HUg as well x

[StrongBond3653]

Your poor daughter. What a complete w@nker he is. I am so sorry she was upset and I feel your pain as a mother.
Stay strong and look after your daughter. Give her cuddles, make sure she knows you love her. I hope you are ok x