So me and DP split nearly 2 months ago. When the relationship worked it really worked, when it didn't he was not good to be around .
Isn't life meant to get better after they leave? When I walked on on mentally financially emotionally abusive exH, it felt like I had become me again, like the whole world had opened back up. This time it just feels like my whole world has collapsed in on itself. Everything I do just reminds me of how much fun we had doing that together. Despite the occasional (big) problems, Live was more fun, and a hell of a lot easier. Still love him so much it physically hurts.
I desperately want to talk to someone but can't talk to people because I just don't know what to say. Partly because I know I should have left six months before we broke up and partly because when people offer hugs and support I going from looking like I'm fine to bursting into tears.
Doesn't help that I feel a little lost in my own life anyway. Without outing myself(cos mycircs are so identifiable), I did a really good job of picking DC and myself up from really really awful situation with exH and starting afresh (everything, new home, new career etc.). but since then I discovered one of my DC has SN (another thing that exDP was brilliant with) my life has really had to change to allow me to look after him. But where this leaves my own dreams/wants I don't know, DP was the last bit of those left.
Everyone tells me how well I'm doing, how I appear more relaxed, I guess I am, I'm just also much less happier. I think I just need to vent and someone to come along and tell me this gets better with time.
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Are things meant to get better after they've gone? (sorry long)
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CrystalEclipse · 02/11/2012 23:35
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