Hi,
Just looking for thoughts and advice - hope not to offend anyone but this is my situation and my thoughts. I'd really appreciate any advice.
A bit of background - I got married 6 years ago and now have DS. My marriage fell apart when my husband cheated with a work colleague. He had a child with her but has never seen this child as they broke up acrimoniously. He now lives nearby with a different woman who had three of her own children. He sees DS once or twice a week but I am DS primary carer and he lives with me. The whole situation is calm and we are on good terms as I have worked hard from day one on this for the sake of DS
I never thought I'd have another child. DS was horrendous birth - emergency c section leading to a spell of PND. So another child was never on the cards. I've now been in a new relationaship for the past two years and DP has lived with me and my DS for the last year. He adores DS and treats him as his own. The relationship is pretty good although things aren't perfect. Mainly due to money or the lack of it. Over the past few months I've been feeling really broody and my DP and I have decided to make a final decision whether to try for a baby by Christmas time. I'll be 38 in March and DS will be 5 so I don't want to leave it any longer. It's then or never I think. Anyway, I keep going through a mental list of pros and cons...
The pros in my mind and experience are a sibling for my DS, a stong urge to have another baby, the fear of regret of not extending the family.
My reservations include the fear of upsetting the apple cart. We are pretty happy as we are and just about managing financially. We really would struggle to find the money for additional childcare and we both would have to continue working full time with me being the breadwinner. I felt so guilty having to work full time with DS. I would have to do this again and not sure how I would feel about it. Another fear is that my son won't cope with having to 'share' me. I'm scared of missing out on enriching our family with a baby but this is counterbalanced with the fear of regretting having another baby and the way having a baby would stretch our family with time and money.
My biggest fear stems from the fact that one of my ExH reasons for leaving was that he claimed family life wasn't what he expected. I would be broken if that were to happen again with my DP but I guess that's my issue caused by the damage and heartache caused by my marriage break up.
I'm so confused....
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Torn about (trying) having another baby. Sorry it's long
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butterflyroom · 02/10/2012 10:04
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