So I'm feeling a bit hurt, and trying to find reasons not to be, and hoping I still am friends with this woman... Sorry if this turns out to be long.
I just found out that someone I thought I was quite good friends with is getting married next weekend! I'm pretty shy, so don't make friends easily, but I thought she was one of the very few (perhaps best) friends I'd made since I moved to the UK. She was one of the first people I told when I found out I was pregnant; she (I thought happily) agreed to be my emergency birth partner in case of early arrival when DH was out of town 3 weeks before my due date; I've shared things with her that I consider quite personal; she appeared to reciprocate.
She is very busy, and has always been a bit hard to get ahold of, but when we did manage to have lunch or coffee everything seemed fine. Since DD made her appearance this spring, we've chatted in person only twice -- she came to visit when DD was two weeks old and we arranged a meet-up in town when DD was 4 months. I had been starting to feel a little like the relationship was unbalanced, in that we kept talking about me and DD, but she kept asking questions, and as a new Mum I was obviously happy to answer! I also know she is very interested in having children. And there just hadn't been much time, either. But because of this, and when we hadn't spoken for about a month, I sent her an email suggesting we meet up again and telling her I needed to find out about her life, as I hadn't had an update on her BF in a while. She wrote back and we commenced trying to find a time we could meet up. We work at the same place, so were trying to find time during the working day, when we were both available, but it was hard.
This was about a month ago. A few days later I saw via a conversation between mutual friends on Facebook that she was getting married (she's not on Facebook). I decided to not say anything and let her tell me herself. I was, after all, planning to quiz her about BF! Weeks go by. I am then told in person by a mutual acquaintance about the marriage (but with no dates). I figure I now ought to let her know I know, so I email all excited about the news and that we absolutely must get together and have her tell me the details! We try to arrange a few things in the coming weeks, but she keeps being too busy. We eventually leave that she'll phone me on the weekend, and in trying to arrange that, she mentions how crazy things are with the wedding next weekend.
So I'm feeling hurt. If I hadn't said anything, was she just not going to tell me? I wonder if concentration on DD in our few chats offended her? But she has always seemed open, happy, etc. in tone in the emails. I do believe she was honestly busy. She has always been like this, and now that I know she was arranging a wedding, too, she has tons to do.
Then she didn't call on the weekend. And DH has just gone into hospital with an emergency and before this whole wedding thing she would have been one of the people I'd reach out to for support (really, the only one nearby). But I really don't want to have another conversation about me with her, as I want to concentrate on her news! I'm trying to reserve judgement - I don't know anything about when they got engaged, etc., and it could be very fast, and it could be a small family wedding.
And now I'm home alone with DD, worried about DH, and not quite sure what to do. Email again and try to get a call? Mention DH or not? Phone her in the office? I don't want to seem desperate, but now that I know it's next weekend, doesn't it seem reasonable that I'd want to share her excitement before the event? Act happy and excited, or let her know I'm hurt, or tease lightheartedly?
Sorry, I know this has gone on a long time and now I'm getting all teary with fear about DH and sadness for the friendship. I really thought we were close.
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She's not as good a friend as I thought, is she? :(
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madscimum · 01/10/2012 10:27
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