I was 16. I got invited to a party by some cool older boys (I was bullied at school so this was a huge deal). I was hated at school for liking rock music and so meeting these boys was really exciting.
I remember trying to act cool when I saw someone rolling a joint for the first time, and I remember buying a litre of vodka. I remember telling people that I was really experienced and that I was bisexual (I was a virgin, but I am bisexual - I had just never told anyone). I remember doing my first ever flirting, with a particular girl who was v cool and a goth boy.
Next thing I remember, I was waking up in my own bed, holding a kitchen knife, arms bleeding (I used to self harm quite a lot back then) and really hurting between my legs. There were spots of blood in my knickers.
Over the next few weeks, lots of people were sniggering at me and asking if I enjoyed the party, so I tried to act cool. Then I admitted to two random boys that I had no idea what they were talking about, and they laughed and said I must remember shagging half the party.
I kind of laughed and went to the record shop.
Now, was this rape, or was it me being drunk?
(I must add, I have since enjoyed the odd orgy, so it isn't completely unlikely that I might have liked one then)
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Namechange0477 · 01/10/2012 02:02
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