I've been lurking for a while and have read some great feedback on posts on the relationships threads.
I am beginning to think I am turning into a bunny boiler with my insecurities and panics over my current relationship with DP of 9 months and would welcome objective feedback. Apologies in advance for waffling on - will try and give as much info up front.
A bit of background DP had been in a relationship for 6 years before me, and said he'd been single for about 4 months. I fell for him after a few months, he said he didn't believe in love as it was important to him to have a sense of freedom after previous relationship. My previous serious relationships, one in my early 20s and one in my early 30s were both with possesive EA men, both of my ex DPs cheated on me, the first with a one night stand and the other with an emotional affair. I spent most of my 30s avoiding men and recovering from the EA and sometimes PA of the last one. So I was relieved that current DP was not the possesive type and wanted to maintain a sense of independence.
However, I am now beginning to feel insecure in the relationship, I think perhaps I want more. We see each other Sat & Sunday and then one night through the week. He shows very little interest in what I do when I am not with him, although on the days we don't see each other he will call at least once. Is this fairly normal?
I feel jealous about what he does when he is not with me and his ex girlfriends . He is close with an ex from many years ago and she recently commented on his FB wall on a song he shared "Happy memories, Happy times" which made me uncomfortable. I asked him about her, he says they don't talk much now and although he claims she still has feelings for him he does not feel the same. He has now made her invisible (or that I cannot see her at least) and any comments or likes from her have been removed from his wall. We have always agreed how important honesty is in a relationship and sometimes I think he is now hiding stuff. Although I don't believe he is seeing anyone else.
Yesterday I was on FB again, and I could see some of his private chats (part of the PMs being made public for a couple of days?) I know I shouldn't have snooped, couldn't help myself....there were some very intimate PMs from a woman over a period of a couple of months just before and around the time we got together, was obvious they were seeing each other. We've spoken about ex's, but he has never mentioned this woman. I think I am I being completely paranoid to think he should have mentioned that there was someone else between the last serious ex and me, right? Even though he told me was on his own and taking the time out that he needed before starting a new relationship? Possibly it was so casual he didn't think it was worth mentioning. I have never felt this kind of misplaced, immature jealousy before and I am having difficulty knowing how to deal with.
I guess what I am looking for is advice on whether or not these issues are mine, in my own head, to deal with myself and get over, i.e the jealousy and insecurities or if I should be discussing it with DP and perhaps send him running for the hills . I am aware my track record with close relationships is pretty abysmal. I am currently having CBT counselling to improve my non-existent self-esteem and help with negative and irrational thoughts. I have a good job, and lots to occupy me out with the relationship, but I think I really need a kick up the backside to get back to rational normal thinking!
Thanks if you've read this far, I usuall keep all this kind of stuff to myself.
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Feel like am becoming a *Bunny Boiler* (sorry a bit long)
moneypenny69 · 26/09/2012 11:51
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