My Secret Fantasy

[cuckquean]

Ok I have read about cuckolds.... But not cuckqueans! I have this huuuge fantasy about my man sleeping with another woman. And it's a complete head fuck because as well as massively turning me on, the prospect of it devastates me. I have had this with all boyfriends, told 2 of them about it and they would think up "hypothetical situations" when we were actually having sex and talk me through them doing things with others. Every time I would have the most amazing orgasms.

This only turns me on when I am completely secure with my boyfriend's feelings for me. When I imagine he was actually sleeping with someone else I feel sick. I've been close many times to getting a few of my boyfriends to sleep with someone else, but I still don't fully understand this fantasy and how it can both turn me on but upset me to such extremes. I guess I am just hoping someone can help me really figure out what's going on in my head!

[Teansympathy]

Honey you like the fantasy , and your boyfriend enacting it for you , BUT the reality is just too much for you to do, dont worry that is why it is called a fantasy and is quite normal .

[Houseofplain]

I've had a sneaky thought of what wouldn't be like. In the throes of passion and fantasising.

I've never told him. He'd be horrified. Plus in reality I'd chop his balls off.

Fantasy does not mean reality!

[Teeb]

It's a perfectly normal fantasy that I'm sure many women have. Sexuality is very complex, and emotions like shame and humiliation can be exciting. There's no harm in it being a part of your sex life as a fantasy concept, and from what you say about your orgasms, quite a lot of positives.

I wouldn't recommend anyone turn a fantasy like this into a reality though (I think it is possible for it to work in very very few like minded people) but from what you say I don't think you would be one of those people.

Basically, if you and your partner are comfortable with it, then do what you enjoy.